I just donated to a project that encourages women to live happily with their bodies the way they are.
At the same time I’m on a 30-day health kick.
Sound a bit contradictory?
Let me explain.
A few months ago I blogged about Taryn Brumfitt’s Body Image Movement. I’m such a big fan of the concept that I just backed Taryn’s crowd-funding campaign to make a documentary encouraging women to embrace their bodies.
When I recently revealed this to a friend, she said: ‘Why would you do that? I thought you loved your body…’
I understood where she was coming from. One of the first blogs I ever posted was about appreciating my body post-birth.
But, it hasn’t always been that way.
When I was 20 I weighed-in at a lean 49kg (108lb). I had just been through an extremely painful break-up and, as part of the grieving process, I had literally been starving myself.
I survived on the odd tin of vegetable soup and water – for months. I also exercised like a machine, but I wasn’t strong. I was tired and weak.
Everyone commented on how wonderful I looked, but inside I was miserable.
I was not healthy, despite looking the stereotypical part.
That was when I realised, health is based on so much more than physical appearance.
It’s about strength, stamina, vitality and, most of all, happiness.
A few months ago, I noticed that I was starting to feel sluggish. I’d enjoyed gently easing back into exercise since giving birth to my second child, but I was ready for more.
I came across Candice through a mutual friend and I liked the sound of her motto ‘find your fit.’ Her philosophy is based on empowering people to find their own version of health and fitness. For some it might be running a marathon, for others it might be lifting a huge amount of weight.
For me, I just wanted ‘that feeling.’ I wanted to feel strong, energised and happy.
And it worked.
I’m looking forward to continuing on the path of making health and fitness a bigger priority in my life, not because I want to look a certain way or weigh a certain number. I’m looking forward to it because it feels good.
I haven’t been paying too much attention to my appearance. I certainly don’t weigh anywhere near 49kg and I don’t think my post-baby jiggly belly will ever disappear.
But I didn’t sign-up to change my body.
I signed up because I already love my body.
And when we truly love something, that’s when we tend to nurture it, right?